Hi. Here I am again. Writing blogs is way harder than I thought they’d be. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy the challenge. However, it’s hard to dredge up a lot of painful memories that I try to avoid. Avoiding them is okay once in a while, but it shouldn’t be my main coping skill, which it once was.
In life, don’t we all carry pain that we need to work through? I am still left searching for meaning in the aftermath of my struggles. For me, healing is a fine line between overthinking and finding meaning. There is so much wrong in my life; how can I climb out of this hole and help people?
Since I’ve pretty much been sick in bed for the past four years, I’ve had to work on stillness in the struggle. There is nowhere to hide. Facing emotional or mental pain is a crucial part of healing and growth. “Facing pain” or “sitting with it” doesn’t mean you have to like it or stay in it. It means allowing yourself to acknowledge what hurts, rather than pushing it away or numbing it. Only after sitting with it can you release it.
Oftentimes, the thoughts pop back up, but I know that if I allow them to spiral, I’m left wondering how life can be so brutally miserable and unfair. Since I embrace a growth mindset, I’m using what almost destroyed me as a chance to turn pain into purpose. That is how Mindfully Malignant started.
Until next time, breathe deep and here’s to progress, not perfection.
Bren
